Fight for the positive, always fight. 

Ok so, I didn’t get the job and I’m pretty disappointed. Plus I was feeling low about some other things going on. So feeling very down about a lot of things today. 

But I’m going to fight the anxiety which is creeping in. I bought a coffee. I fixed my lippy. I purchased two new books. I’m feeling slightly better. If only. 
I’ll describe more about everything a bit later. It’s just too much right now. 
Have a positive day people. Fight for the positive. 
xR. 

The 7 Deadly Sins of Makeup.

Hello there!

Today’s post is called the 7 Deadly Sins of Makeup which I read on Dorkchops, and loved!!

I adore playing with makeup and cosmetics and generally just being a girly girl. So I thought this little idea was wonderful.

  1. Greed: What’s your most inexpensive beauty item? What’s your most expensive beauty item?

The most inexpensive beauty item I own is my Australis makeup products. I spend money on these products regularly as I use their powders, primers, lippy’s and eye-shadows to just name a few… I love their makeup because it is quite lovely to use and added bonus- quite cheap! This is great because it just means I can have more! Hehe! Take for example the Velourlips matte lipsticks they sell. I have 11 different shades, and doubles of my favourites (just in case!). They retail at $9.95 here which is quite a steal. Make up is so painfully expensive here in Australia L.

My most expensive beauty item that I own would have to be my perfumes. I love perfume and I love to smell nice!! I have lost count of how many perfumes I actually own which makes me gleefully happy. I am forever trying new fragrances and often receiving perfume as gifts. The only thing is, I have expensive tastes! My top 5 favourites are Emporio Armani- Diamonds, Juicy Couture- Viva La Juicy, Amani- Code, Dior- Poison and Dior- J’adore. I do also enjoy some less expensive scents such as those by Taylor Swift- Taylor, and have newly obtained her Incredible Things!! So delish.

  1. Wrath: What item do you have a love/hate relationship with?

Winged Eyeliner will be the absolute death of me. I cannot even express how much I have a daily love/hate relationship with it. I love the look of it and I love to wear it. However my eyes, hands, and liquid liner will only cooperate with me approximately once a month. All the other days I look like an uneven panda face. But I will continue to persevere because I love it so much.

  1. Gluttony: What brand takes up most of your collection?

My collection is mostly comprised of two brands. When I can get away with less expensive items is Australis is my go to, as mentioned in Greed. However I also have a lot of L’oreal. This is a little more expensive to buy but I do love their products. I use their foundation daily and love their BB creams and eye-shadows.

  1. Sloth: What product do you neglect the most due to laziness?

Exfoliation products! EEEEK! I know that is terrible and I really should battle with it. Its just when I do my face tends to have a massive break out and reaction due to having very sensitive skin. It’s not like I’m pounding away so I leave my face raw though. My face just doesn’t like it so I don’t do it. Maybe if I persevered and did it more often my skin would get used to it, but for now I’m content to continue to neglect it. Moisturiser FTW!

  1. Pride: What product gives you the most confidence?

I have to say foundation. I don’t know why but when I don’t have it on I feel overly self-conscious. I know this is actually quite a silly thing because I am quite blessed with clear skin, despite the odd blemish or pimple at certain times. I just find I feel better if I have a full face on and it gives me more confidence so why shouldn’t I embrace it.

  1. Lust: Which item is at the top of your beauty wishlist?

I would loveeeee to get my hands on the Urban Decay Naked Palette. It’s so expensive to buy here or to get it shipped here. Again the perils of loving makeup in Australia! But I definitely would love to own this one day!!! I would also love to own some Chanel lippy’s and nail polishes one day. Mostly just because they’re Chanel and what girl doesn’t love that J

  1. Envy: Which makeup product looks great on others but not on you?

Highlights and contours- I would love to be able to chisel my cheeks and whatnot without being one of those Pinterest fails where I end up looking like a painted man LOL. I don’t have the patience to try and learn and so completely neglect it in my makeup routine. But I do love the look of it and how it can bring the face to life!

So there we go, my 7 Deadly Makeup Sins!
Thank you for reading, I hope you have a beautiful afternoon.

x R.

Working Worries

Hello,

Today I’m really needing to vent. This is all tied up with my post from the other day about my job hunting.

I still haven’t heard back regarding the position I had my interview for on Friday night. This isn’t a bad sign yet because they said we would hear back on Wednesday or Thursday. I am still trying to stay positive and hopeful- this little light is dwindling though.

What’s concerning me is being stuck here in my current position. Forever. I mentioned previously I currently work alongside my best friend. Well he has just found another job. The role in his field where he completed his degree and I am over the moon with happiness for him. But that nasty little part of me is absolutely jealous. I don’t not want it for him, don’t get me wrong- I am so thrilled. I just wish I could find a way out of here too. He’s so happy now and relieved, whereas now I’m the polar opposite and even more anxious. I’m scared for how I will feel once he doesn’t work here anymore and how I will cope. My little bit of solace will be gone. I’ll be left here to deal with the horror (I am dramatic) all by myself.
* Allllll byyyyy myyselfffff. Don’t wanna be; Allllll byyyyy myyselfffff * 😦

Oh dear I hope I can troop on. I know I can and will continue to do so but I hope I don’t lose myself and my -happy- completely. I really need to find other work !

What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. Right?? And what’s meant to be will be???
I hope these cliches actually mean something. They’re all I’ve got at the moment.

Sorry for such a melancholy post, but I do feel better expressing myself through my blog. It’s my little land where my scattered thoughts seem to make more sense and seem slightly more coherent.
So thank you for reading & being here for me by default !

x R.

2015 Oscars Fashion- My best dressed!

Good evening,

Who doesn’t love the fashion at the Oscars!
These were my picks of the day-

My favourite, on the left, (see below) was Jamie Chung in Yanina Couture! How stunning is this gown. Oh. My. Gosh. I believe this stood out to me the most because it was a bit different. I loved the tulle. I loved the colours. I especially loved sequins which added that lovely bling. Yet all the while this gown remained stunning and elegant. Perfect red carpet look teamed with her hair in loose waves and subtle make up. Divine!

I also absolutely adored the dresses worn by these four lovely woman as well.

-Jennifer Aniston, dressed by Versace. This woman remains as gorgeous as ever!

-Anna Kendrick looked classy in Thakoon. The colour of this dress was just so refreshing to see on the red carpet.

-Margot Robbie looking sensational in Saint Laurent! Loving her new hair as well. She’s a hottie this one.

-Rosamund Pike, the lady in red! This look ran a close second for me. The colour! The lace! The silk accents! And what a figure- 12 weeks after giving birth. Holy wow. This lovely dress is by Givenchy. I just adored the lace and the scalloped neckline. So feminine and pretty.

I don’t actually know who won any awards (kidding!) but I sure know who I thought looked gorgeous 🙂

(All pics pulled from Pinterest!) I’ll add more with links when I can get on my computer 🙂

Have a wonderful evening,
x R.

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Job Huntng- the highs and lows.

Happy Saturday!

This post is a bit of a vent for me today. For the past year or so I have been pretty miserable in my job. Let’s just preface this post with – it hasn’t got better or changed; I’m still stuck in the same positon, feeling miserable. -.-

I work in retail, in a small privately owned business. In a month or so it will mark 1 year since the business changed owners. The new owner is a huge pain in the bum. I do not like him. He’s immensely rude, quite dumb, and very very very lazy. He treats myself and my best friend whom I work with like slaves and abuses how we are both naturally hard workers. It is not a very rewarding feeling at all. This new boss, (lets name him PITB for the sake of this post; [pain in the bum].) PITB has made conditions unbearable and many days I will come home from my shift in tears. My poor mum cops the brunt of it, not to mention countless texts every day of me raging or sooking, whatever the case may be. But I need the job so I have a source of income. Ahh first world problems. As soon as I met the new boss which was about a month before he took over I knew I had to find another job. So the search began. As soon as he started I began to panic and began pumping out job applications everywhere and anywhere. I had a few interviews in the business industry which I wanted but they unfortunately amounted to nothing. This wasn’t meant to be. Que Sera, Sera. (I am a huge believer in the saying “if it’s meant to be, it will be”. I live by it).

I managed to acquire another retail position about a month after the changeover. This was great initially and I thought, “Wonderful- here is my out!” and for about 5 months I worked the two jobs. I needed to keep both because having only one wasn’t enough shifts ($$) to live on. Unfortunately I grew to not like this new position either. Now I probably sound picky and a bit like a princess, but honestly I really wanted this other job to work out. The reasons I didn’t like it was because the company seemed soulless and only out to make a profit. Plus the other staff members were bitchy and rude. I constantly felt excluded and an outsider despite being there for several months. I felt so lonely every time I was at work. So I let this job go. In doing so my PITB boss became slightly more bearable. I think he thought I loved working for him and that’s why I let the other job go. (Ha-ha you’re dreaming buddy). Mostly I just liked having more freedom in my original positon because I had been in it for so long (8 years next weekend, eek!) I call a lot of the shots because he is still learning (#hasnoidea) and lets me take the reins. I also enjoy it because I love all my regular customers who come in and will have a chat with me. So to help myself get through the day I tried more to relate to my customers and have really become fond of some them. My initial thinking was if I was talking to them then I wasn’t talking to PITB. But now I think it’s truly a blessing because some of these people are absolutely beautiful. I’m looking at you Val and Ron. As a result of things picking up at work (slightly) and some utterly painful and frightening interview processes I abandoned the job hunt.

PITB stayed bearable up until after the Christmas break. Now he is back to royal PITB status. Apparently he arrived up to work one day with his asshole dial turned right up and has forgotten to turn it back down. Lucky me.

Naturally the job hunt started again. I’ve been searching since the middle of January and hadn’t heard back from any. That’s my one pet hate with searching for jobs- workplaces just completely ignore you. They don’t even bother to say “thanks for applying, but you’re not suitable.” Jeez- send out a generic email, simple as that. I think how they completely ignore you it is the height of rudeness.

Wonderfully, on Friday I received a call from a job I had applied for that morning! (I applied at work moments after PITB had completely infuriated me lol). I had a phone interview that afternoon and they asked me to come in for a face-to-face interview that night. It was pretty full on how quickly it all happened. I think that was actually a good thing though because it didn’t allow me to work myself up too much or get too anxious. The people who interviewed me were quite lovely which was such a blessing. Nothing worse than interview stress coupled with mean cranky interviewers. The whole experience was quite pleasant and has motivated me to keep looking and keep my head high. I will find something when the timing is right.

I probably won’t hear back as to whether I got the position until late next week. I am also not hopeful to acquire it either. Always pessimist when it comes to job hunting. Not saying I don’t want it though, I would love it. Love love loveee it. But I don’t think I will. But paws crossed.

The reason I wanted to post about this was because I am just so over job hunting (despite being positive and motivated to keep looking… Does that even make sense?) It is so unbelievably hard. When I tell my friends (who are happily employed in a position they love) that I am unhappy within my current job they just say “oh well just change jobs”…. Um hello? It’s actually not (!) that simple. So you my lovely little blog will have to cope with my whinging as I continue my job hunt.

(Fingers crossed for the one from yesterday though!!!!!!!)

Thank you for reading, and if you are job hunting, I wish you all the very best.

R, x.

Nerd Corner: First 5 Book Reviews of 2015

| What Alice Forgot | Every Day | Dark Places | Eleanor & Park | Big Little Lies |

Hello there,

Today’s post will consist of me discussing the books I have ready so far in 2015. I have got off to a cracking start and managed to complete 5 books so far and it’s only the middle of February. This makes me a happy little nerd. Granted, I spent the first two weeks of the year on a cruise where I was required to do nothing more than relax and hence spent many, many, hours with my nose buried in a novel.

I aim to read over 30 books this year. I feel this is achievable but also a little bit challenging. I would much rather sit down for two hours with a book than watch television. Thus the ‘30+ book challenge’ helps me stay motivated to do so when sometimes I feel like crashing and staring at the TV like a brainless zombie. (Note to self, must catch up on The Walking Dead!)

The first book I read this year was What Alice Forgot by Liane Moriarty. I read a list on Pinterest a few months back listing 20 books which this person (don’t know who they were unfortunately) thoroughly recommended. This list provided a one sentence blurb about each book and I jotted a few book titles down which interested me. What Alice Forgot was one of these and I really quite liked the book. It details a woman’s journey as she finds herself with amnesia after a fall. She is missing the past decade from her memory and the books shows how she deals with all the changes and what adjustments she has to make to this new life she finds herself in. I really enjoyed this concept because it made me think back to my own life 10 years ago and where I would be if I found myself in the same situation. Honestly, I truly would not like be in that position because I would be frightfully naive and self-centred beyond words. A lot of knowledge is accumulated in 10 years, that’s for sure. Thank goodness. It’s scary how much can change in that amount of time and how much of a struggle you would find yourself in if you were stuck back there alone. I love fiction that makes me think. This book was an easy read and I found myself cruising through it. I have now read a few books by this author but unfortunately this was my least favourite so far. I don’t mean that negatively at all though. This book just had to take a place amongst its siblings (?) and unfortunately that was where it had to go. I would give it a 7 out of 10 (see I told you I didn’t dislike it!)

The second book I read and thoroughly enjoyed was Every Day, by David Levithan. This book was also stated on that same list where I discovered What Alice Forgot. I enjoyed this book immensely! I don’t want to give away too much about this book because it was truly touching. To quote directly from the David Levithan website “Every day a different body. Every day a different life. Every day in love with the same girl.” This sums it up pretty well, this person wakes up in a different person’s body each day and yet is still in love with one girl. The book details how this relationship unfolds and it is absolutely perfectly written. I couldn’t put this down plus I laughed and I cried which I think are all markers of a good book. I wish it could have lasted longer to be perfectly honest. I rate this book an 9/10.

Next up I completed Dark Places by Gillian Flynn. Dark places indeed. I had previously read another book by Flynn, Gone Girl, which I picked up because I like to read novels before I see the movie adaptation. Both book and movie I really enjoyed. I actually believe it is one of the closest book adaptations I have seen translate into film and that always pleases me. Having thoroughly enjoyed this I thought I would try some more from the same author. Dark Places introduces us to Libby who at seven years old provided evidence which put her elder brother, Ben, in jail for the brutal murders of her mother and two sisters. After coming into contact with a Ben ‘fan-club’, Libby begins to question her memory and looks into the evidence a little further. The book goes on to investigate what really happened that brutal night all those years ago. I liked this book, despite it being darker (excuse the pun) than my normal reads. It was eerie at times but I enjoyed how the story evolved. I will say that I did enjoy Gone Girl a lot more because the story had me a lot more intrigued and kept me guessing more than Dark Places did. Because of this, I will give Dark Places a 6/10.

I then read Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell. A short little love story about two teenage misfits which was such a cute little read. This was quite a short novel which I read in only two days. I really hope this author writes more about these two characters because I feel there’s so much more to their story. Plus I just totally want to know all about them and what’s to follow… What happened???! (If you’ve read this book; what’s your thoughts??) I actually don’t understand why this book isn’t more popular at the moment to be honest. A Fault in Our Stars went absolute gangbusters (I realise the movie helped). But this novel had that teen love feel to it too. Personally, I adore teen love. I believe nothing is ever more real or pure than your first love and what is lovelier to read about and remember than that. I would reluctantly give this book an 8 out of 10 (not a 9, readers will know why 😉 he he).

Finally I just closed my copy of Big Little Lies by Liane Moriarty. I have now read a few of Moriarty’s books, What Alice Forgot (as mentioned above), The Husband’s Secret (wonderful and amazing!!) and The Hypnotists Love Story (could not put it down!). I actually went out and purchased the other two books by this author when I finished this book because I like her that much. All throughout the book it alludes to a murder of which you don’t know who has been murdered or who by. It details the stories of several school mums and also many different perspectives surrounding the events lead up to the murder. It was quite an entertaining and light read (not a scary murder book). It also made me quite nervous for the days when I have children and it begins time for me to begin the ‘school mum’ role! How frightful! I would give this book an 8 out of 10.

Well that’s my reading up to date. Please let me know any thoughts about these books and my interpretations. Plus I always welcome book recommendations!

I am currently reading The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold and will let you know what I think soon!

Much love,

R, x.

All these little thoughts…

Hi !! Wow, here I am starting my first little blog post. I am so excited about this, and thrilled you’ve stumbled across my musings.

I have started this blog as a means of expressing myself and releasing some of the millions of thoughts I have, like a huge exhale. Sometimes you have to just let them out don’t you? I decided to do it in the way of a blog because I felt I had to. It felt like I was going to burst if I didn’t start to get my thoughts out there where someone might discover them. And where better to put them on the internet right? Nice and private… *raises eyebrow*. In all seriousness though, I felt like I wanted to put my thoughts out there, my honest heartfelt hopes and fears, where they could be read and maybe related to. Over sharing through numerous facebook statuses are not cool, hence why I was drawn to a blog.

So this blog could go anywhere and will potentially cover anything. Adventure awaits!

So, me. My blog. What about me…

  • Well, the thing that makes me most happy in this world is my black cat, who gives me immense joy. #crazycatlady.
  • I am a bit of a bookworm (who am I kidding, I am a crazy nerd).
  • I am obsessed with fashion, and I like to be a bit quirky in my own style.
  • I am trying to change my future career wise and studying business to hopefully do so. This stresses me out and gives me great anxiety because sometimes I feel like I am getting nowhere and that’s right where I am going to stay. I guess maybe that’s a part of wanting to blog, to work through my anxieties so I don’t get so caught up in them.
  • I love tea, it’s like a nice warm cuddle to your soul. My preference is English Breaky, white, no sugar.. But I love green and herbal teas also!
  • I have a close little family who mean the world to me.
  • I have a lovely boyfriend who taught me how to love again.
  • I am a girl, I guess I never stipulated that. See scattered thoughts, gee we’re in for an adventure… I don’t know who I am talking to, but hello lovely internet person.
  • I am a bit of a hippy.
  • I have two tattoos, only small ones. One of which is a Harry Potter tattoo. (See dot point two.)
  • I love a good Disney movie. My favourites are Beauty and the Beast, Tangled and I really enjoyed Big Hero 6 when it came out just after Christmas!
  • My best friend is a boy, and he makes me laugh. He’s getting married in a year or so and that makes me so happy.
  • I own a lot of nail polish, over 200. In fact I used to blog about that for 12 months or so. I no longer do that, it was very specific content wise and thus I got bored.
  • I am a bit of a bower bird, I like to collect pretty and shiny things.

Well that’s it for now… my first little post. I think I have procrastinated from the assignment that is demanding my attention. But I am so thrilled to have started this!! I feel very excited and positive about it!!

Thank you for reading!! I appreciate it so much.

Have a beautiful day…!

x R.